AFTERPARTY III: Never Have I Ever Been Quite This Drunk

[mirrite]

[There's absolutely nothing celebratory about this drinking party. "Party" isn't even the right word, not really-- it's more like a "drink until you forget and/or black out" session for anyone who wants to participate, and even the bartender isn't immune from that much. Please forgive him if your drink isn't mixed quite right; he's trying his best under the circumstances.

There's food, too, if anyone wants to attempt to stave off a hangover tomorrow, or just get something in their stomach after the events of the day: stirfry from Makoto, vegetable soup from Nageki (mediocre, but hey, a genuine effort was made and that's what counts), and some tea for those who would rather abstain from the harder stuff. (Is that even many people tonight? Probably not.)

Come on by the bar if you're hungry or want a drink, or even if you just don't want to be alone right now. That much, at least, is something that can be guaranteed tonight.]

Comments

[ideismo]

I personally see no reason to be upset over Yor. She decided that what she wanted was worth more than SQ's life, and that was her choice to make.

[gemuinemanagement]

[......]

I've never had any siblings
But I thought that Yor was what having a big sister would be like

[ideismo]

[...]

My stance remains what it is. Whether she deserved what ultimately happened to her or not isn't my place to decide. But the fact remains that she killed two of our number.

I don't offer much sympathy toward those who choose to act here. Understanding, perhaps - I don't fault them. But I'm hardly going to cry over them.

[gemuinemanagement]

You're better at this than I am
Not caring about people like that

[Suga cares too much - it's always been a problem for him.]

[ideismo]

[That gets an odd, soft noise out of him.]

I care deeply for everyone here. I want them to go back to whatever lives they came from, and if circumstances allow I would like for them to find happiness wherever they are. I certainly wouldn't wish this situation on any of them.

I just can't afford to let that get in the way of surviving this. If that means I don't befriend or even get to know the majority of them, then that's how it's going to be.

[gemuinemanagement]

That's still more detachment than I can manage
I'm a little jealous, honestly

[Despite everything, Suga isn't that good at closing himself off.]

[ideismo]

It's necessary.

[gemuinemanagement]

[Well, he can't argue that, but...]

The people here have been kinder to me than anyone has been in years
So I guess it's not surprising that I can't do something like that
Even if it's necessary

[ideismo]

[...]

...Those I love are often targeted and killed. Not because of anything that they did, but because of me.

I don't extend my affection to anyone anymore. It keeps everyone else from seeing them as a vulnerability to be exploited.

You decided it's for the best if someone you care about doesn't remember caring about you. In my case, it's for the best that it never gets that far to begin with.

[gemuinemanagement]

I'm sorry to hear that
Even knowing that it's for the best, and being committed to that path
It does get lonely, sometimes

[ideismo]

It's all distance, in the end.

[tonight is a good night for being depressing, i guess]

This has been a setback. But we'll recover; we don't have much choice.

[gemuinemanagement]

I've decided
That since I can't stop caring about people anyway
I'm going to care more
Just to spite Hamelin
Who'd be happy to see us at each other's throats

[Spite is an excellent motivator!]

[ideismo]

Do as you will.

[That sounds. bad? But you do you, Suga. You do you.]

[gemuinemanagement]

I still think of you as a friend
For what that's worth

[He knows it's not much, but still.]

[ideismo]

[...Oh. That.

He still isn't sure what to do with that.]

It does mean something to me, you know.

[...]

And...likewise.

[gemuinemanagement]

[Ah. It's not much, but - possibly for the first time today, Suga offers a tiny smile.

Alexei's a good person. Even if he ends up like Yor or C-ta, Suga will still think so.]