[It's almost automatic. He stops himself, though, because it's true that it can be dealt with as long as it isn't getting any worse. It's just the ever-present elephant in the room, a painful reminder of Phil's mortality and all that implies, and the fact that it decided to rear its ugly head now is setting off an entire cascade of emotions that he really doesn't feel equipped to deal with at the moment.]
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[It's almost automatic. He stops himself, though, because it's true that it can be dealt with as long as it isn't getting any worse. It's just the ever-present elephant in the room, a painful reminder of Phil's mortality and all that implies, and the fact that it decided to rear its ugly head now is setting off an entire cascade of emotions that he really doesn't feel equipped to deal with at the moment.]